I'm attempting to breastfeed this little guy as I write. We have been having a lot of fun with him despite the crying and waking up in the middle of the night. What would I do if I were working? I hate to think of the fact that I'd be going back to work in 4 days if I were in Oklahoma. But instead we are in our love cocoon. SR has three weeks off and I am trying not to worry about what life will be like when he goes back to work. I'm only going back part time, so that will be nice.
One thing so far I had not anticipated about motherhood was my irrational reactions to fear of something happening to Christian. I was standing out by our dumpster and imagining someone throwing him in. It is cold out there. He would surely try to find the nipple for a while and whimper and then just die. I started crying and I'm getting tears in my eyes writing about it. SR's daughter joked about throwing him in the garbage and again I cried. He is just so helpless.
SR's kids have been wonderful with Christian. It really impresses me how naturally they love him despite being jealous. I worry a lot about my preoccupation with Christian and hope they know I still love them.
Speaking of preoccupation, I wouldn't be sealegsgirl if I didn't talk about weight gain and exercise.
As of today, my weight is back to my pre-pregnancy weight! And my exercising so far has been as follows.
Days 4-5 postpartum: light walking
Day 6: elliptical for 35 minutes (this felt great!)
Day 7: elliptical for 50 minutes (started to get pain in the coccyx)
Day 8: downhill skiing (no pain at all)
Day 9: elliptical 35 minutes, swimming 35 minutes, yoga for 50 minutes. I was sooo tight at yoga - definitely the hardest yoga session I've been to.
Day 10: elliptical 30 minutes, swimming 35 minutes and running for 2 miles (!).
So yes, I'm back running and it felt awesome. I went so fast and it felt effortless. I can't wait to run outside in nice weather. I had a dream the night before last that I was running on a trail in wide open plains in Nebraska in the middle of summer. I saw what I thought was a storm coming, but when it got closer I realized it was a group of angels with flaxen hair and smiling, beautiful faces. They picked me up and took me with them, watering the fields as we flew.
SR and I have been planning our spring and summer running schedule, which includes a bunch of relays so we can hand Christian off as a baton.
Alright, we're off to the Y. Thanks again to everyone for your comments! They made us feel so happy.
And yes, Lisa, he does look a bit like his father.
Running Song of the Day: Africa by Toto