Photo from Mount Royal, Frisco, Colorado.

"That is happiness; to be disolved into something complete and great. When it comes to one, it comes as naturally as sleep." - Willa Cather

Wednesday, 20 February 2008

Our love cocoon

I'm attempting to breastfeed this little guy as I write. We have been having a lot of fun with him despite the crying and waking up in the middle of the night. What would I do if I were working? I hate to think of the fact that I'd be going back to work in 4 days if I were in Oklahoma. But instead we are in our love cocoon. SR has three weeks off and I am trying not to worry about what life will be like when he goes back to work. I'm only going back part time, so that will be nice.

One thing so far I had not anticipated about motherhood was my irrational reactions to fear of something happening to Christian. I was standing out by our dumpster and imagining someone throwing him in. It is cold out there. He would surely try to find the nipple for a while and whimper and then just die. I started crying and I'm getting tears in my eyes writing about it. SR's daughter joked about throwing him in the garbage and again I cried. He is just so helpless.
SR's kids have been wonderful with Christian. It really impresses me how naturally they love him despite being jealous. I worry a lot about my preoccupation with Christian and hope they know I still love them.

Speaking of preoccupation, I wouldn't be sealegsgirl if I didn't talk about weight gain and exercise.

As of today, my weight is back to my pre-pregnancy weight! And my exercising so far has been as follows.

Days 4-5 postpartum: light walking

Day 6: elliptical for 35 minutes (this felt great!)

Day 7: elliptical for 50 minutes (started to get pain in the coccyx)

Day 8: downhill skiing (no pain at all)

Day 9: elliptical 35 minutes, swimming 35 minutes, yoga for 50 minutes. I was sooo tight at yoga - definitely the hardest yoga session I've been to.

Day 10: elliptical 30 minutes, swimming 35 minutes and running for 2 miles (!).

So yes, I'm back running and it felt awesome. I went so fast and it felt effortless. I can't wait to run outside in nice weather. I had a dream the night before last that I was running on a trail in wide open plains in Nebraska in the middle of summer. I saw what I thought was a storm coming, but when it got closer I realized it was a group of angels with flaxen hair and smiling, beautiful faces. They picked me up and took me with them, watering the fields as we flew.

SR and I have been planning our spring and summer running schedule, which includes a bunch of relays so we can hand Christian off as a baton.

Alright, we're off to the Y. Thanks again to everyone for your comments! They made us feel so happy.

And yes, Lisa, he does look a bit like his father.

Running Song of the Day: Africa by Toto


olga said...

I think he looks a LOT like his father! Oh, precious:) Good for you for kicking back into excercising!

Michelle said...

I agree with Olga! He's the spitting image of Daddy!

sea legs girl said...

You are both right. I asked my mom if there was ANYTHING about Christian that looked like me and she thought for a long time and couldn't come up with anything. SR joked about injecting me with some other woman's egg and I started crying. Yes, the new mother psyche is quite fragile. :0)

Michelle said...

You know, when my daughter was a baby, EVERYONE went on and on about how much she looked like her daddy. Now that she's four, everyone always says she looks just like me (and she does now!). So I'm sure Christian will exhibit some of your features as he gets older. :-)

Lisa said...

Oh, SeaLegsGirl.....he is soooooooooo cute! I can't stand it, he even has a little hair do. Oh, and the bluest eyes.

I'm glad you are running again. I bet it feels great!

Lisa said...

Forgot to spill the beans....Allison is pregnant!

Brianne said...

Congrats! He's beautiful! I've been reading for a while and thought I would finally comment. Good job on keeping your exercise level up. I'm envious. I'm 9 months pregnant and have tried to stay as active as possible but suffered quite a bit of pelvic pain throughout the pregnancy so wasn't able to keep running 3-4 miles, a few times a week. (My former level.) But I'm pretty confident I'll bounce back fairly quickly after the birth. If she would just get here already.....!

Anonymous said...

So, I wouldn't be me if I wasn't a little nervous about the exercise...your body is still healing from labor, so it's ok to ease back in!

Abbie said...

So I've also been following your blog for a while. Sorry if that's odd... But I'm due in four weeks and was wondering whether you had to have an episiotomy or not and if so, how it's affected your running. Your son is adorable. I love the picture with the four of you. It's like he knows that he needs to pose for the camera.

Meghan said...

Christian is gorgeous and, yes, he does look like SR! At least people aren't all, "He doesn't look like either of you!" or "He looks like an alien!" :)

Thanks for sharing this update. I'm really impressed that you've been able to ease back into the exercise as well as you have. From my uneducated position, it almost seems like easing into exercise after childbirth can be compared to easing into exercise again after an expedition race or a 100 miler or something extreme like that. Only the soreness and fatigue might be centralized in a -er- slightly different region of the body.

Congrats again and I look forward to following your family's progress!


sea legs girl said...

Thanks everyone! And congrats to Allison!!! I'm so excited for you. I'd do it all over again in a second (but honestly hope it's not that soon). Abbie, luckily I didn't have an episiotomy. The fact he was so small certainly helped. I did have two stitches up in there somewhere that I am not aware of when I exercise.